If you were an employee at General Motors you'd know that once every month you are required to change your password to make sure that no one could ever guess it.
I knew this fact when I read the story of a GM employee who had recently divorced his wife and who was struggling with finding peace in his new reality as a single man.
One day, just like it had happened hundreds of time before, he was asked to change his password but this time he decided he was going to pick one word that meant something to him instead of a bunch of numbers and exclamation marks. On a typical day at work he had to type this one word so many times that he thought it would make sense to use his password as an intention, so he chose the next one to be "Forgive her".
His divorce was a bitter one and he had yet not forgiven his ex wife for what had happened so he decided to use this daily reminder to change that.
Next month the question popped up again and this time he chose a new word "Peace".
Month after month the question would keep coming up and his words kept changing until one day he typed "Find love". And he did. He finally found someone that he felt was the love of his life so the last password he chose before writing his story was "Give her the ring".
I don't remember where I read this story but it stuck with me.
The first time I decided to set an intention for a new year was in 2016. My daughter was less than two months old and my parents came to USA to meet her for the first time. When New Year's Eve arrived we gathered around in my living room and we raised our glasses together ready to welcome 2017. There was so much to look forward to: my dad was finally going to retire, my husband and I were going to have our religious wedding ceremony in Italy and my younger sister was making plans to visit me for a few months after the wedding to help me out with my daughter. I was excited about all the good things that were about to happen but when I raised the glass to the sky and said "Happy New Year!" I felt those plans were not enough. I needed to set an intention for the New Year so I took a few seconds to think about what I really wanted to achieve and then I told myself: to 2017, the year of Truth!
That year is when the process of separation between my husband and I took place. It felt as if my quest for clarity was finally answered and I started to understand things that had been a mystery to me for so long. It felt as if I had been peaking through a shut curtain for so long unable to make sense of what was on the other side when finally someone pulled the curtains down and everything became crystal clear in one moment.
When December of that year arrived I knew exactly what was going to be my next intention: Happiness. I had been in pain for so long that there was nothing else I wanted more than that. In April 2018 I left the house and started my journey as a single mom. I was swamped with responsibilities, had no time for myself and taking care of my daughter felt like the hardest thing to do but no matter how tiring and difficult things got I always felt proud of where I was and also felt happy with my life. That summer I spent countless hours outdoors, with my daughter or by myself, letting the healing power of nature sink in and heal my wounds.
When December 2018 approached I set my new intention for 2019 as Self-Love. I was going to find time to take care of my own needs and mostly learn how to love myself again, something I had not done for so long.
That year I resumed my gym membership and started to explore the path of meditation. I spent as much time as possible sitting down in silence listening to my own inner voice. Over time my gut instinct came back and the sense of alignment to my intuition added up to my sense of happiness and overall wellness.
In April 2019 I discovered Divine Truth and that changed my life for good.
By December 2019 I had confessed my feelings to my soulmate and I had started my quest for my desires. So the intention for 2020 was to Live in my Desires.
In May 2020 I quit my job and had the most amazing summer of my life. I volunteered for multiple non-profit organizations, biked about 30 miles a day, learned a new language, expanded my friendships, painted and resumed playing the piano (which was my biggest passion as a child).
When the end of 2020 approached I knew 2021 was going to be the year of Growth. I still had so much to learn about myself. I felt heaps of wounds that I had never felt before, some coming from my childhood and others being the sub-product of recent experiences. The more I spent time doing what I loved the more I could see emotional blocks that needed to be released.
Initially I tried to document most of the emotions that I released but half way through I realized how difficult it is to remember things that are no longer part of yourself. There have been times when I would start processing and releasing an emotion only to end up in a completely different one. I discovered how intricate and complex our soul is but also how easy it is to navigate what seems to be a labyrinth of emotions when you follow your heart.
Yesterday I went for a reading to a local psychic. I never believed in mediumship but in the past couple of years I have used them as a help to identify the areas where I need to work the most and last time I had a reading was in December 2020. My first reading was in 2019 and my main question was if I had any wounds in my spirit body. The lady I chose to do the reading wasn't the best but I didn't know any good psychic at the time so I went with the flow. She had a lot of personal injuries towards men, probably some repressed anger, and that showed a lot in her reading. The only good info that I got out of that reading was that I had 3 wounds on my spirit body: one small one on my left wrist, one medium-large on my left shoulder and a very big one on my stomach.
At the time of the reading I had no idea what emotions were causing those wounds but I knew there was some truth in what she said because I had been feeling a sharp pain in my left shoulder for some time and also I had been experiencing debilitating problems with my digestions for years. After doing some research I found out that 2 out of the 3 wounds were related to myself or to my mother since they affected the feminine side of the body (the left) and the third one had to be somewhat related to my sense of worth since the digestive system is mainly related to that aspect. In the months following the reading I prayed a lot about these wounds and over time I processed a bunch of emotions related to my relationship with my parents and my relationship with myself.
I never found out what emotion was specifically linked to the two wounds on the left part of my body but by the end of 2020 I felt I had made a lot of progress and I knew I had released a lot of issues that were related to the feminine so I decided to go for another reading. As expected the wounds on my left shoulder and left wrist were gone however there had been an intensification of the wound on my stomach. I asked the medium (a different one) if she could help me understand what was the emotion causing the wound but she wasn't sure about it. She told me that she felt it was related to a feeling of anger and sense of injustice but she could not pin point the exact emotion. With the beginning of the new year I decided I was going to focus on this one big injury which had become so severe to affect not only my spiritual body but also my physical body. My digestion had been bad for years now and I was determined to find out what was causing all that. As mentioned above, 2021 has been the year of growth and I have released the highest amount of emotions since the beginning of my spiritual journey so when I went for a reading yesterday I was very eager to know what the medium was going to say about my current situation.
This was the first time I got a reading from this medium so when I met her she decided to take a few minutes to explain to me how she structured her readings. She told me that she uses cards beyond her intuition and she encouraged me to be open to whatever answer she was going to give me. She explained that most people go for a reading hoping to get a specific answer and that she did not believe in pleasing the person but she preferred to be blunt and direct whenever needed. I told her that I wanted her to be as honest as possible and that I appreciated her being upfront about it.
Before turning the cards she told me that I had a very strong aura and that she saw plenty of bright yellow coming out of my chest area, specifically from the heart chakra. She said that I had a strong self-esteem and that I followed my intuition a lot. Also she saw a lot of bright lime green, magenta and traces of light pink . She quickly explained the meaning of every color and within a few seconds she provided me with a very accurate picture of who I know myself to be at this point in my life. That gave me a lot of confidence in her ability to read and when she asked me what I wanted to know I asked her if she could see the wound on my stomach and, if yes, how big was it now. I expected her to give me good news for the simple reason that my stomach problems have gone for months now. I didn't know what emotion I processed that helped me get rid of the problem but I knew I had done some progress in that area.
She told me that there is no wound at all in my stomach and that right now there is a huge emanation of bright yellow energy coming from that area. Yellow is the color that came through as strongest, bright lime green and magenta are the second strongest and light pink is the last one. Here below is a summary of the description that she gave me. I wasn't able to note down all that she said but when I googled the colors of the aura I found these descriptions to be very close to what she told me (Excerpted from https://www.auraaura.co/aura-colors):
YELLOW / Yellow is the color of the solar plexus chakra, which rules our intellect, self-esteem and personal power. Those with yellow in their energy field resonate with vibrations of confidence, happiness, a strong sense of self, esteem, and the ability to inspire others to achieve greatness. They are natural born leaders, who tend to have high levels of energy and the ability to positively motivate others. Individuals with yellow auras encourage and support others by naturally being themselves - they radiate like the sun and they also may have a great ability to analyze complex concepts. Those who glow yellow are full of inner joy, generosity, and naturally attract others towards them - they are warm and radiant like the sun. When yellow is darker and dense in our aura, we may experiencing self criticism, perfectionism, over confidence, or operating too much from our ego driven self.
GREEN / Green frequencies resonate with the vibration of the heart chakra, the center of personal growth and healing. Those with green auras radiate unconditional love and a life force energy that is sensed by all beings that come into their presence. Because of this, individuals with intense green in their auras consistently over time, are typically drawn to nature and animals and are natural self healers. Being in the presence of a person with green emissions in their energy field can be a very peaceful and restful experience. They are the most balanced people in the entire color spectrum, easily giving equal attention to their own creative goals and to the people they love. They have a sense of responsibility and service to others, and are very self assertive. The green aura is one that bridges the spiritual and physical worlds. They are focused, with high ideals and aspirations - profoundly creative individuals. If your green is dark or murky, you may be focusing on feelings of jealousy or envy - you may be feeling like the victim and viewing comments from others as criticism.
MAGENTA / Those with a magenta aura are true originals. The color magenta is a combination of red and blue frequencies - technically right in-between the two on the color spectrum. Those with magenta emissions in their aura combine a masterful understanding of the physical world (Red) with a heightened capacity for intuitive thinking (Blue). This combination makes people with magenta auras ideally suited for creative work. These high-energy, naturally creative beings thrive on originality and innovation and are not fond of using copycat methods of creativity. Those with magenta in their auras tend to walk to the beat of their own drum, and experience the world in their own way. They can sometimes come across as a bit eccentric, but generally attract positive attention from their peers. These individualistic thinkers consider following the crowd to be boring and restrictive. Peer pressure has no effect on them. They love to shock people, to shake them from their ordinary, humdrum existence. These unique personalities are generally optimistic and prefer to look at life with a sense of humor. Magentas are usually very strong-willed and intelligent – but rarely understood. They are innovative individuals, fascinated by the latest gadgets and inventions. They do, however, deal with the tangibles on the planet - like taking physical substance and stretching it into new forms that go beyond what people consider normal. These free spirits aren't usually concerned about what others think, rather being authentic to themselves is what’s most important.
PINK / A true, lighter pink is one of the more rare colors to show up in an aura. A bubblegum/baby pink aura can be seen around persons who are gentle in nature and radiate pleasant, loving energy to every being they come into contact with. They are deeply sensitive, embrace the ideals of romantic love, and often have a natural ability to keep the romance alive and well in relationships. They are natural healers and creatives, with an inkling toward intuitive abilities. The color pink vibrates at a similar frequency as green, which corresponds to the heart chakra. People who have light pink emissions in their aura inspire a feeling of comfort to those around them. Pink vibrations are bubbly and uplifting because they correspond directly to the heart chakra, which is typically associated with feminine energy. Even in the midst of life’s most pressing challenges, a person with a pink aura can help heal others with a glance, a smile, a kind word, or just by being present. They remind us to be gentle with each other and all of earth’s creatures.
After talking about the aura and the wounds in my spirit body we moved on to the next step and I asked her what is my biggest emotional block at this time.
She slowly turned the cards and she immediately made me notice how right in the center of the table there was the card with the image of the Empress with a yellow light coming out of her chest area. She had just talked to me about that yellow light and here it was on the cards as well. She said that I have a strong power of manifesting what I desire and that I will get it as long as I keep desiring it with the same intensity that I have right now. An Empress...what a beautiful image, so powerful yet so maternal.
She then took a second look and she asked me what is my relationship with money. She said that my biggest block at the moment is related to money and specifically how I see myself in relation to them. She went on saying that I have a sense of unworthiness not only when it comes to money but also to love and this one emotion is my biggest block at the moment. Of course she knew nothing of my sabbatical and my situation with my soulmate. Yet, she nailed it.
I was no new to the concept that money and love are related to each other. Months ago I was working on one emotion related to feeling rejected by men. I was looking back at my history with relationships and thinking how many times I loved someone without being reciprocated. It was a very painful emotion to process and as I felt through it I had a sudden flashback to when I was in my mother's womb. I felt the fear that my parents experienced when they discovered that they were pregnant with me and the pain that I felt when those emotions entered me. Instead of being welcomed with love and joy, the news of my arrival was received with dread and trigged in my parents fears related to survival and money which, to me, felt like a lack of love. When I came out of that emotional flashback I was blown away. It was as if one huge emotion piggybacked another and an emotional connection was created between two areas (money and love) that I considered completely independent from each other.
So when the medium talked about these two subjects in the same sentence I was not surprised. In fact, she reinforced the awareness that these two subjects fall under the same umbrella. I always had a feeling that my issues with money were so much more than just financial and this was a confirmation that I needed to hear.
When I left the reading I had two words in my mind: Money or Love. I thought I was going to choose between the two of them but leaving one of the two behind felt wrong. Today I spent a little more time thinking about it and I realized that I don't need to pick one of them. I can aim for something more encompassing than love or money and that word is ABUNDANCE.
Abundance can be in love, finances, happiness, friendship and any aspect of our life. Abundance is what I want to strive for in 2022 and I cannot wait for this new adventure to start.
I know the past couple of years have been anything but normal and for many of us have been filled with tragedy, anxiety, pain, fear, frustrations, grief and many other difficult emotions. However, when the year will reset on December 31st and life will ask you to choose a new password for 2022 I hope that you will pick one that is not just a bunch of numbers and exclamation marks but one that will get you a step closer to where you want to be in the future! Happy 2022, my dear brethren!